I’m feeling suffocated with my own inner self. I can’t breathe. I don’t even understand myself.
Everything doesn’t feel right. Everything is wrong. I’m actually tired of everything that it hurts - so bad.
Why does it hurt so much? Why am I feeling this depressed? What makes me depressed more is that I don't even know what actually makes me this depressed.
I’m trying not to stress myself because it eventually leads to depression but I don’t know. I just can’t help it. To be frank, sometimes the need to cut myself like I used to do is coming back; the thought of committing suicide is there again too.
Besides, wouldn’t it be perfect if I don’t exist anymore? I won’t be a burden to anyone around me. No one has to deal with me. It’s amusing that I can’t even deal with my own self. Can you imagine how frustrating and devastating that is?
No, this has nothing to do with anyone.
It’s just me.
However, what’s worse? Physical pain that leaves scars which will remain to be reminisced; or emotional and mental pain that leaves no marks but kills your soul slowly?
However, what’s worse? Physical pain that leaves scars which will remain to be reminisced; or emotional and mental pain that leaves no marks but kills your soul slowly?