I really can’t...

I really can’t cope with anything anymore. My mental and emotional capacity won’t let me. I’ve reached the point where I only wanna leave and put an end on everything. Everything is exhausting and I just wanna sleep for good as to not face them anymore. Facing them is tiring and draining my energy down. I’m getting sick day by day. They’ve no idea how bad the trauma is to me that I have to deal with where no one close coddles me. They’ve no idea how many times I’ve to endure panic attacks when something triggers me. They’ve no idea how easy I can get triggered by something; even as trivial as it can be. They’ve no idea how hard I’ve been fighting my own demon alone. They’ve no idea how many times I’ve been cutting and hurting myself. They’ve no idea how hard it is for me to stop myself from harming myself more and more. They’ve no idea how desperate I am to stop myself from ending my own life every single day of my life. For every time that I stopped myself from ending myself, there are twice as many attempts that I’ve had in mind. So please, I’ve really had enough. Please stop torturing me. I can’t take it anymore.