I'm feeling...

‪I'm feeling empty and hollow even until now. I'm exhausted feeling this way all the time. It's indeed tiring and energy consuming to force myself to be where I'm currently at in reality when all I want to do is shut off and be alone. All I have in mind is for everything to end quickly and possibly as painless as it can be. It scares me to know that I've been thinking of ways to put everything to a stop. There are so many ways of ending everything that I've had in mind that there are times where I can't even decide on which is better. These thoughts haunt me regardless of where I am and what I'm currently doing. I've to admit that this isn't healthy at all anymore. This is making me sick more and more as time passes by. I need as much as help that I can get to fix and heal myself. I really can't cope with anything anymore. It's tiring me out physically, mentally and emotionally.‬