I'm tired...

All I'm thinking about is ending everything right now. I'm so fucking exhausted of being alive. I can't even save myself anymore. My faith is wearing thin; just waiting for it to snap and finally ending everything myself because when will this fucking stop? I really can't stand anything anymore. Even the tiniest things can trigger my demon to crawl back to me. I'm so tired. I'm tired of being unhappy. I'm tired of fighting my own demon. I'm tired of feeling nothing and everything at once. I'm tired of waking up in the morning wondering if today will be the day that I'm finally gonna be happy for good. I'm tired of losing hope bit by bit that I'm feeling empty most of the time. I'm tired of crying my eyes out hoping to finally be fine. I'm tired of being hurt. I'm tired of battling myself from self-harming. I'm tired of pretending that I'm fine in front of everyone when I'm absolutely not in the inside. I'm tired of my own hypocrisy. I'm tired of facing everyone around me. I'm tired of being here. I'm tired of being me. I'm tired of doing anything at all. I'm tired of everything and everyone. I'm just so fucking tired of life. I always wonder if this thing will ever stop or will I have to grow old with it. Nothing feels right anymore. I just want everything to end and be happy again. That's all I've ever asked for.