There are times where...

I know very well that I always feel things deeply. That's why I despise myself for that for showing both love and hatred intensely and no in between. I know it can be overwhelming for some and it does for me too. Perhaps, that's why most people can't handle me and how I portray my feelings for I can't too. It's tiring to be the one who loves but yet hates too hard. It's exhausting having to deal with all of this. There are times where I wish that I'm void of feelings and emotionally detached as to not hurt myself and those around me. It's indeed overwhelming to me and imagine how these people feel when they're on the receiving ends most of the time. If only I could pluck out my feelings and get rid of them for good, it'd be so much easier; for me and my loved ones.