It's exhausting pretending nothing's wrong and fine whenever someone is around me. The only time I can let the darkness looms over me is when I'm alone (if no one bothers me). I despise having to explain to anyone especially when I know how the reactions would be. Not cute. I'd rather keep everything to myself than talk to people that won't understand me despite me trying to tell and explain things to them. The only thing they'll do is saying how insignificant my problems/feelings are and others had it worse than me. I've had enough of that.
"Talk to us. Don't keep everything to yourself."
The way these people always said this to me but they'd never even bothered to listen to what I had to say. Instead talking over me and invalidating my feelings. It happened before over and over again and I know it'll happen again. One day, I'll leave this place and its people behind. One day, I'll leave. May that one day come quicker or to Him I'd return myself to.
